Trying to get this book done is difficult. I find I'm taken to a very dark place in my past, in my psyche and in my present by composing such a macabre theme. It thrills me to delve into the possibilities of what can be in creating the book, but I just can't go deep into it without coming up for air. It's taking a long time and I keep trying to convince myself to continue when it's not something I think will matter in the long run.